My Heart's Own Will

I tried to tell my heart, I really did,
But still, it followed its own stubborn lead.
Now tell me, who's to blame for this, I plead,
Is it my fault, or just my heart's misdeed?

You were never truly mine, or so it seemed,
Yet in my heart, a space for you redeemed.
I cannot shake your memory, it's true, 
And you, you won't let me forget you.

You've claimed my heart, so deeply you reside,
My very pulse, where can it truly hide?
No peace my hurried heartbeats seem to find,
With you enthroned, unsettling my mind.

In every thought, you've settled, taken hold,
No other dream dares in my mind unfold.
Your memories fill this void I carry deep,
Even in solitude, I find no sleep.
Without your echo; I'm not truly alone.
I search for me, but you are all I've known.

If I could somehow just exist without your light,
Even then, I think life itself would feel a hollow night.